KultHERed is Back Like We Never Left! But First, Transparency.
Ya’ll…
It’s been a while. 7 months, to be exact. I’m a tad ashamed, but we’re back up in this thang ready to go!
KultHERed took a hiatus in August. I didn’t engage in any social media, no posts, no content etc. August was a tumultuous time for me because I was burnt out from my job working from home (which I ended up leaving and now work somewhere else), my Imposter Syndrome fears were at an all time high and the restlessness, uncertainty and constant death episodes of COVID coupled with manic depression created a ghetto, uninspired mess. I’m not proud, but it’s an honest starting point.
Manic depression has been something I’ve lived with since my senior year of high school in 2012. It’s not something that is neccessarily ‘cured,’ but I’m also resilient and pliant enough to understand that it’s not my final destination. I’m starting to reach a more stable point of working with and around it enough to relaunch my brand and begin writing again.
If I were to describe it, I would say that it’s akin to drowning in a dark, stormy ocean with people looking straight at you as flail for help in both subtle and not so subtle ways, but no one lends you a hand. It’s silent and lonely. The simplest tasks take hours to do- you procrastinate and feel bad because you need to do it, but don’t have the energy to. You scroll for hours on end on social media because it’s a welcome distraction from real life, but then you get triggered with comparison from other folks eloquently curated lives and your looming responsibilities. Answering the phone for anything is taxing and makes you tired, insomnia is a threat and life is stuck in the same, stagnant sad cycle. For some folks, your hygeine and self care suffers. It’s dangerous, numb and comfortable all at the same time.
That’s my truth. I’m actively looking for a therapist and safely practice self soothing and medication practices. I’ve sat with myself and answered honest, grueling questions about who I am, who I want to be and how I’m going to get there. It isn’t linear and it isn’t pretty, but the bravest and most selfless act of love is to mold yourself bravely into the person the Universe and you not only want to be, but need to be.
So here we are, sis. KultHERed is coming back this spring with a new logo, new stories and series, giveaways and more. I’m working on consistency and walking completely in my truth, because I’ve discovered that I’m divesting from respectability culture, 9-5 culture, men being raggedy on the internet and real life, capitalism and so much more. I invite you to be honest, hold yourself accountable and keep upgrading yourself like the latest iPhone sis.
In the meantime while I gather my life and make new content, if you ever have any suggestions, comments, words of encouragement, want to read older interviews and articles or have wig suggestions, follow me on social media - @Kulthered Media on Facebook and @kultheredmedia on Twitter. See you on Blue Ivy’s ghetto internet!